2/29/2008

So, life is moving rapidly. A few more weeks of classes. A month to study for boards. Then I hit the wards in May, beginning with Pediatrics or Surgery--still haven't gotten my schedule. I'm excited and have already thought about what electives I'll do fourth year. I can't wait to do rotations at Walter Reed and Tripler (Hawaii!).

I saw Nat Baldwin live on double bass. Wavy jams.

12/15/2007

I haven't had time to write much. I've meaning to write something about Elizabeth Samet's Soldier's Heart: Reading Literature Through Peace and War at West Point, but instead I will direct you to adapted excerpts in a New York Times Magazine essay: "In the Valley of the Shadow." I'm hoping to hold a symposium on war, literature, and psychiatry here at Michigan next semester. It's taking quite the effort to plan this thing, if it's going to happen at all.

I usually like to proclaim my favorite in music and film every year. It's not very meaningful since I've only seen a handful of movies this year and my music selection has been more arbitrary than comprehensive. I will weigh in anyhow with Rise Above by the Dirty Projectors, Andorra by Caribou, and In Rainbows by Radiohead. I also liked Adrian Orange and Her Band's self-titled release on vinyl (just bought a record player this year). As for film, I have literally seen 6 movies this year, almost all of which I liked, especially Rescue Dawn, Once, and No Country For Old Men. I hated Sicko and had mixed feelings about I'm Not There. I found the former to be reductionist, and I liked how one reviewer described the latter as a film that didn't do much to illuminate Dylan's life, but was more of a reflection of how people have viewed and want to view the unknowable Dylan.

The concept for an event on war, literature, and psychiatry clicked after reading Dr. Samet's book in less than three days--I never read anything that urgently. She prefaces her book with two quotes that explain the term "soldier's heart" and that perhaps relate to her themes and thesis.
Happy are these who lose imagination:
They have enough to carry with ammunition.
Their spirit drags no pack.
Their old wounds, save with cold, can not more ache.
Having seen all things red,
Their eyes are rid
Of the hurt of the colour of blood for ever.
And terror's first constriction over,
Their hearts remain small drawn.
Their senses in some scorching cautery of battle
Now long since ironed,
Can laugh among the dying, unconcerned.
  --Wilfred Owen, "Insensibility" (1920)

In every campaign there are large numbers of soldiers invalided home with the affection of the circulation commonly called "soldier's heart"... The treatment is not that of ordinary heart disease, but should be directed to in every way increasing the general tone, including mental tone, of the sufferers... The patients should not be told, or allowed by our bearing towards them to think, that they have "heart disease," as such is not strictly the case.
  --Robert Dawson Rudolf, "The Irritable Heart of Soldiers (Soldier's Heart)," The Canadian Medical Association Journal (1916)
This doesn't pertain to Dr. Samet's book so much, but I am intrigued by how psychiatric illness can be modified by suggestiveness, placebo, and other non-pharmacological interventions, hence the efficacy of cognitive-behavioral therapy. I think this says a lot about the possibility and the power of the will, that much of pathological thinking and behavior can be overcome by insight and the application of that insight. Take this quote from a blog I've been reading:
When I was a boy of seven or eight I read a novel entitled "Abafi"... The lessons it teaches are much like those of "Ben Hur," and in this respect it might be viewed as anticipatory of the work of Wallace. The possibilities of will-power and self-control appealed tremendously to my vivid imagination, and I began to discipline myself. Had I a sweet cake or a juicy apple which I was dying to eat I would give it to another boy and go through the tortures of Tantalus, pained but satisfied. Had I some difficult task before me which was exhausting I would attack it again and again until it was done. So I practiced day by day from morning till night. At first it called for a vigorous mental effort directed against disposition and desire, but as years went by the conflict lessened and finally my will and wish became identical. They are so to-day, and in this lies the secret of whatever success I have achieved.
  --Nikola Tesla
This viewpoint is quite inspiring and has interesting implications. One loosely related idea that is relevant to military psychiatry is the possibly detrimental effects of labeling certain injuries for which the etiology is little understood. Suggestiveness and unconscious motivations can be rather potent and shouldn't be underestimated. I first heard this idea this past summer at a conference, and it seems that there are other people thinking about the same thing in the American Journal of Psychiatry:
[...] as a study of U.K. troops returning from Iraq shows (N.T. Fear et al., unpublished 2007 data), there is an association between mild traumatic brain injury and posttraumatic stress disorder, with service personnel having a range of symptoms that often meet the criteria for both diagnoses. In states of uncertainty, it may be that contemporary service personnel prefer to be labeled as suffering from mild traumatic brain injury than any psychological disorder, just as shell shock in its initial quasineurological formulation was very popular. It may be that such labels reduce stigma and encourage help seeking, a major issue for the present generation of service personnel (46). But, on the other hand, it may divert attention from more easily treatable disorders, such as depression and posttraumatic stress disorder. Labels themselves affect prognosis. For example, a study of postconcussional syndrome by Whittaker et al. (47) suggested that subjects who believe that their symptoms have lasting and deleterious effects are at higher risk of experiencing an enduring disorder of this kind. In other words, strongly held negative beliefs play a part in maintaining symptoms and functioning—exactly the reasoning that led the British Army to ban the use of the term “shell shock” in 1917.
 --Edgar Jones, Nicola T. Fear, and Simon Wessely, "Shell Shock and Mild Traumatic Brain Injury: A Historical Review," American Journal of Psychiatry (2007)
If you don't have access to the journal, I can e-mail it to you. You can also borrow my copy of Soldier's Heart if you'd like.

9/02/2007

I went to church for the first time in Ann Arbor today. There is something enchanting about the stained glass, the organ music, and the ritual of Catholic Mass. Maybe it's the mystery or nostalgia. The homily tangentially reminded me of the Festival of Faith & Music at Calvin College in which I witnessed a majestic performance by Sufjan Stevens, and then was able to hear him speak about what religion means to him and his creative process. His thoughtful, analytical approach resonated with that of David Dark who spoke a day earlier.

One particularly striking line David draws on is from Leonard Cohen. In responding to a question about whether he viewed himself as a poet, Cohen said: "I always thought that poetry is [a] verdict [...] It's for others; it's for others to use." It is this kind of view which David thinks should inform one's faith. To, for instance, claim one is Christian and claim certain truths and things for Christianity in a self-proclaimed or even self-righteous manner, he thinks, is not right. He says, "The word 'Christian' is a verdict. In the book of Acts, they first got called Christians in Antioch [...] It messes with our confidence in a way if we relinquish the right to call ourselves Christian. But I think it's worth looking into [...] 'It's a verdict, not a choice' is kind of powerful."

Perhaps this reflects the message of today's homily on scripture (Luke 14: 1, 7-14) in which Jesus speaks of humility in a parable. It seems to me that it is humility, as opposed to certitude or righteousness, that is lacking in many practices of faith. There is also a similar sense of certitude and oppression exerted by some opponents of religion as well, which I find equally discordant. It seems that I am always taking the middle ground on contentious issues (copping out, some might say), but my reasoning leads me to agree with Stephen Jay Gould's idea of "Nonoverlapping Magisteria," which I won't elaborate on--you should read it.

On an unrelated note, I am seeing Children of Paradise on the big screen later today! And I've been listening to "Rise Above" by the Dirty Projectors on repeat!

9/01/2007

I saw the Dirty Projectors for the second time last night. David Longstreth and his band are becoming one of my favorite live acts. His vocal gymnastics might be owed to a Mariah Carey influence, and David Garland says the musical world Longstreth creates is as disparate as the one created by Harry Partch. Don't miss the Dirty Projectors' Daytrotter or Take Away Show sessions, either.

6/17/2007

"Happy Father's Day, Mom!" to all the single mothers out there.

5/02/2007

I caught bits of Operation Homecoming: Writing the Wartime Experience on PBS a while back. This is "Here, Bullet" by Brian Turner.
If a body is what you want,
then here is bone and gristle and flesh.
Here is the clavicle-snapped wish,
the aorta’s opened valves, the leap
thought makes at the synaptic gap.
Here is the adrenaline rush you crave,
that inexorable flight, that insane puncture
into heat and blood. And I dare you to finish
what you’ve started. Because here, Bullet,
here is where I complete the word you bring
hissing through the air, here is where I moan
the barrel’s cold esophagus, triggering
my tongue’s explosives for the rifling I have
inside of me, each twist of the round
spun deeper, because here, Bullet,
here is where the world ends, every time.
This and other writings are read in the film, to at once beautiful and haunting effect. I've already ordered the DVD.

3/25/2007

If you haven't listened to Ben Folds' cover of Dr. Dre's "Bitches Ain't Shit," check out his myspace. Then watch this amazing a cappella version of it performed by a group at UC Berkeley. If you couldn't tell from the song title, I'm going to warn you that the song contains explicit lyrics.

3/07/2007

I'm sitting here chewing delicious Bit-O-Honey candy and watching an amazing music video.

3/01/2007

Further investigation reveals that the book is to be released October 16, 2007, by Farrar, Straus, and Giroux under the title Soldier's Heart: Reading Literature Through Peace and War at West Point and is available for pre-order on Amazon!

I also found another article: "War Stories: What West Point graduates are reading in Iraq."
Here is an eloquent essay about teaching poetry at West Point. The author was my professor for film class. After reading this, I wish I had taken more electives that she taught. I'm unsure of its status, but she has also written or is writing a book titled Just a Shot Away: One Teacher's Story of War and Peace.

2/18/2007

Please read from the Washington Post: "Soldiers Face Neglect, Frustration at Army's Top Medical Facility"

A lot of physicians are leaving because of the broken system that is military medicine. It is discouraging and heartbreaking for me to read things like this. But my resolve is also strengthened--I mean, wouldn't you feel compelled to enter the system, however broken it is, and do your best to effect change, however small it might be?

A few related articles (added Feb. 21):
"Wounded and waiting"
"The Hotel Aftermath"
"What I've Learned: Bryan Anderson"
"Swift Action Promised at Walter Reed"

1/27/2007

I was listening to some music by Six Organs of Admittance, went to their website, and ran into this delightful recipe:

Solution Bread

1/05/2007

The ABSOLUTE best films of 2006: Pan's Labyrinth, Army of Shadows, and Volver.

12/12/2006

Ever get a sneaking feeling that the year is about to end and that so much has happened? Old friends are off in the real Army for real, and I'm wrapping up just the first semester of a long, arduous path that is medicine, all with these new strangers.

Anyway, here's some catharsis.

10/14/2006

Tom Waits, ladies and gentlemen, Tom Waits:
  1. Bottom of the World,
  2. You Can Never Hold Back Spring,
  3. Road to Peace.

9/11/2006

9/08/2006

Ann Arbor's pretty nice.